יום שלישי, אפריל 25, 2006

Another Nephew!

Yes, another one, yes a boy again!
Mazal tov!!
Very excited, going to miss the brit, but not much I can do.
Wonder how they will call him...

יום חמישי, אפריל 20, 2006

The day I met Jesus

I left the airplane with out my passport, no surprise here. As my late father used to say, I am very lucky to have my head connected to my body.
Well, had to wait at the passport control for more than an hour (So lucky it didn`t happen in Minsk, but that`s another story).

The air-port was packed pre pesach balagan, slowly slowly the crowd disappeared, and it was only me and this other guy waiting, he was tall, hadsome and worried. Time goes by, and then someone from the passport control office approaches the other guy, looks at him very carefully, compares him with his photo in the passport and asks, in a worried voice:
Jesus?
Other Guy: Yes, that`s my name.

Loved it. that was the day I met Jesus.

יום שני, אפריל 17, 2006

The dead sea

Beautiful. Breath taking.
I had to stay and give up on a hike, due to the teror attack in TA, to make sure all the kiddies are ok.
Should I clame my day off from the Hamas?
wonder.

יום רביעי, אפריל 12, 2006

How funny it is to be in Israel

Very.
Already drove twive on the wrong side of the road.
Been asked few times when have I made Aliyah, as I have an English accent when I speak Hebrew.
Tried to calculate the price of a fab pair of shoes into shekels. of course the price was in shekeles , silly habbit!!!
Someone I really like just told me that thanks to me he decided what he wants to study, and which kind of a person he wants to be. thats responsebility for you.

The weather is gorgeouse.
So who come I miss London?
Chag Kasher Vesameach!

My newest nephew

My new nephew is called Nehorai. It means full of light and the name is from the Mishnah. He has my brother`s eyes and long fingers. I think I love him.

יום שישי, אפריל 07, 2006

Mazal Tov!

Just to wish my brother and sister in law Mazal Tov on the safe arrival of thier first son.
The brit is on the coming Tuesday, in Israel, and I will be there!
I will keep updating you from Israel!

יום חמישי, אפריל 06, 2006

At First Sight- A Primeira Vista

My friend T lend me this magnificent CD - Chico Cesar. Its great.
But wait till you get to the fourth track! great stuff.
Here is the translation from Portguise (not min of course!):

When I had nothing I desired
When absence ruled I waited
When I felt cold I trembled
When I found courage I called

When the letter arrived I opened it
When I heard Prince (Salif Keita)
I danced
When the eye brightened I understood
When I grew wings I flew

When you summond me I came
When it dawned on me I was here
When I found you I got lost
When I saw you I fell in love.

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........

יום ראשון, אפריל 02, 2006

This one is for J: to Pray or ?

Few thoughts about Prayer
I find it challenging to pray to begin with. I guess that years of being late to prayers at school, failing to be on time for this duty and the guilt involved left a mark. Not understanding how come I can lead (not very sucssesfully) the tefilah in an all girls service only, but not on the Youth movements hikes where we were pushed to the back and only men were involved, just like the grown up`s synagogues, did not help.
Reflecting on the architecture of many synagogues, Men on the floor level easy to get to, and women up stairs, sometimes pregnant, some time carrying a child or two or a buggy, and all the stairs, did not help.
Being the only single women above 25 doesnt help. (where are the othert single women Pray? surely we have the most to pray for)
Seeing diffrent interactions, feeling someone`s hurt, as if its one`s fault not mastering the private language of tefilah. No help here.
Realizing how little some women here know about prayers, and how much men know made me upset.
But if I am not much into prayingto begin with, why should I care that much??? Good question.

One of my favourite Poets - Amir Gilboa writes (in Hebrew, the English, and all the mistakes are mine)

I pray from the heart a siddur
torn edges all the words missing I
see them floating for a while floating
and asking rest for thier feet how
can I bring them rest and the heart
of my siddur is eaten in the edges
less and naked

(Amir Gilboa. All poems vol.b)
(I transaleted Shulayim to edges, let me know if you have a better idea)
Amir Gilboa writes about not being able to pray from Siddur - Siddur comes from Seder - Order, the write order, well organized. Maybe that`s part of my problem , not problem but challenge. I dont agree with this kind of order.
In my heart some of the words of the siddur cannot find transalation to what I feel, and I tried what the Mamonides recommends, the heart will follow the action, but it doesnt help.

I admire those who havent given up on Praying, for them Tefilah is a dynamic expirience, thier heart is there, they can add thier beautiful soul to the ancient words and create a space for the soul to grow.

My private battle is my own floating words of my naked heart.