Its my house warming party tonight. It means a lot to me. Its more my finally landing party, and also 18 days before my operation it is my way of saying, Hi, who ever is responsible for whats going on, probably G-d Almighty himself, look that`s how I am. Happy, with many friends,able to work to study to progress, capable to throw a wild party, (as wild as a geek like me can be), surly if I can do this I can fully recover, right?
(I do realise its more proving to myself. Not to no one else).

Its also about finding my place, in a practical way - new flat where I want to live, and also in an inner way. being happier with who I am, accepting my flaws, celebrating what I am proud of.