The Orthodox Paradox, is a thought provoking article by Noah Feldman, published in the New York times and been talked in the circles of Jewish Education since.
read and judge.

A lot of the things he brings up resonated with me. Living my life the way I do doesnt really follow with what I was taught in School or at Bnei Akiva - the Modern Orthdox youth movement I grew up in. I am one of few who didnt get married yet, I lived abroad, I am observant and I see myself as orthodox, not sure if I am socially orthodox, but when it comes to practice that`s where I (most of the time) stand.
You see, Its hard for me to commit.