יום חמישי, יוני 28, 2007

Not proud to be Israeli today, quite ashamed of the accusations against Moshe Katzav, shocked about the deal he had with the General Attorney.
Unbelievable. Wait, it actually is.
So I am at home, recovering as they say.
Its nice to be at home. I realize it was wise to move to this flat, I like it a lot, it feels home. Last night had a long conversation realizing how many flats I made into a home in the past 4 years, four flats turned into a home.
I cannot concentrate for long, I can watch lazy films, do some reading, still not able to read anything clever or write,it will come back to me they say.
I discovered I made quite a lot of friends, and luckily, they know how to cool, thanks to them I have what to eat, shame I am not that hungry.
Friends are coming for London, they are all around. trying to meet up with them.
So you see, I am getting better. Soon my brain will function again, I might have something interesting to say.
Untill then: goodbye.

יום שישי, יוני 22, 2007

Back from hospital

1. How come nurses have their name tags on display, and Doctors don`t?
2. Why on earth was I receiving food for Geriatrics for 5 days? I was born in the 70`s, not the 30`s.
3. The younger the doctors are, the nicer and kinder you will find them. What`s the lesson? Does the more you get to know the human body the less you appreciate the human soul? or does the fat salary changes your psyche?
4. If the idea of you (or me in this case) staying in the hospital is for you (or me) to get more rest, why do the nurses wake you/me at 6:30 AM.
5. Pain and Brain do rhyme. And it does have implication on their semantics.
like: pain killers are brain killer. fact.

יום ראשון, יוני 17, 2007



פחד אילה תוקף ומרדימך כבאחת
תכף יתקוף הנחש וסכין תונף
החתך יהיה פשוט אודם בטן יתגולל כלי הדם
לא יפגעו המנתחים ידלגו בבטחה עד שימצאוהו
ויעקרוהו מתוכך גוש גוף דם נוזל בטון יסתלק כבאחת
ומעיין בך ינבע ואת תשתחררי מכובד הכבלים שליפפוך ירחים רבים.
Tomorrow (Monday) is the big day. A lot of stories to tell. Has a lot of closure expiriences lately, a wonderful shabbat, a very funny day at the hospital, but I do have to go to sleep, the operation is at seven oclock in the morning.
So, I will be out of touch for a while, next time I will be with you a will be a lot healthier, kighter and much happier, please g-d the pain wil lbe over and I will regain the indefrency healthy people care thier body with.


יום שלישי, יוני 12, 2007

Handing in a big piece of work to day,its 12 poems I wrote.
I am giving a presntation today about an academic topic. Analazing a novel that was published in Hebrew in 1986, Grass Roots by Roth Almog, checking the Historiographics, analazing everything that happened that year. In the society and litrature.
As far as I am concered I was in 6th grade and I had a terrfic role in the school play, My grandfather died and bat mitzva was very small, besides that, It was a good year 1986, For me at least.
I decided not to take a private surgeon, I even didn`t check the cost. I guess its me rebelling against the power of money, an illness Israel is covered by. If you have money you can by a prime minister, you can buy football teams, you can get medicine to cure your cancer, privately. You can decided to close down supermarkets (check Gaidamak), you can get the best surgeon.
I will get the same services as the other person in the near by bed. I just hope she is getting good care. very good care, for free.
Few weeks ago went to a hotel for Shabbat with a group of friends, or to be accrute, friends of friends. All lovely people, English Speaking. I didnt preform any social skills that Shabbat: I was quite, very slow and sensetive. Towards the end I started warming up, caatting with people. you know, being friendly.

There is a gain, and a pain. I was asked twice if I am Irish. Yeup.

יום ראשון, יוני 10, 2007


אל תתן לי ללכת
לעוזבך מאחור
הנח לצחוקי ללפות את פאת השדה
לשכך את תקוות הורינו
ללקט גזרי עץ
לקרוא להם

So its eight days before the operation. I went to the hospital today, to get some papers my Kupat Holim (NHS)needs, no idea why they cannot fax or email it themselves, why on earth would they want to put someone as irresponsible as me in the middle. Of course I got there without the right papers. and its 36 degrees out.
The bright side:
1. It helped being there, it is becoming real, and therefore less scary.
2. I dont need to get the monthly injection. less pain, my gain.
3. I didnt have change so the nice guy let me out withput paying for parking.
4. There is a little mall there, with lots of cafes and fresh juices, and a health store. All sorted now.
5. S is flying in, with lots of mags, sorted.

So its getting better, I can even write about it in my blog. I guess its part of including it in my life. not something to hide or to be ashamed of, its just part of life.

יום חמישי, יוני 07, 2007

Sometines I feel something. I carry an emotion, I am in a mental state, and it has no name.
Its quite how I feel now. the only thing that comes to mind is Graceland.
Thats how I feel today. Graceland. How on earth Paul Simon knows How I feel?
I wonder.

The mississippi delta was shining
Like a national guitar
I am following the river
Down the highway
Through the cradle of the civil war
Im going to graceland
In memphis tennessee
Im going to graceland
Poorboys and pilgrims with families
And we are going to graceland
My traveling companion is nine years old
He is the child of my first marriage
But Ive reason to believe
We both will be received
In graceland

She comes back to tell me shes gone
As if I didnt know that
As if I didnt know my own bed
As if Id never noticed
The way she brushed her hair from her forehead
And she said losing love
Is like a window in your heart
Everybody sees youre blown apart
Everybody sees the wind blow

Im going to graceland
Memphis tennessee
Im going to graceland
Poorboys and pilgrims with families
And we are going to graceland

And my traveling companions
Are ghosts and empty sockets
Im looking at ghosts and empties
But Ive reason to believe
We all will be received
In graceland

There is a girl in new york city
Who calls herself the human trampoline
And sometimes when Im falling, flying
Or tumbling in turmoil I say
Oh, so this is what she means
She means were bouncing into graceland
And I see losing love
Is like a window in your heart
Everybody sees youre blown apart
Everybody sees the wind blow

In graceland, in graceland
Im going to graceland
For reasons I cannot explain
Theres some part of me wants to see
And I may be obliged to defend
Every love, every ending
Or maybe theres no obligations now
Maybe Ive a reason to believe
We all will be received
In graceland

Lyrics by Paul Simon, of course

יום ראשון, יוני 03, 2007

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